im sick n tired of hearing all these people talk about. – NSYNC

mann. ive been in some deep thought lately. i wonder how some things which shudnt be, actually happen. its like the thing is not in the right place. n it aches to see it that way. LIFE it seems.

3 matches have passed in the a-division tournament. i must say that jj is in a pretty good position to advance to the next round. we just have to maintain our focus n do what we do best. Play soccer. so far its been 3 matches down. 2 wins n 1 draw. wanted to win all actually but yeah, its ok. im proud of the team im in n the coaches i have. they're a good bunch of lads i tell ya. from the non-stop laughin sessions to the serious blastings we had. i for sure have gone thru that. even now. sigh. m i losing it? y cant i be the player i used to be? the one that can take on defenders anytime i want n do all sorts of stuffs to annoy them? i used to be called OWEN. i know y. but now, i think i cant even be called noh alam shah. im losing my touch. each time i get the ball, i lose my confidence cause i will have in my mind of what the coach wants me to do..n if i dun do it, i'll definitely get a shouting from him. sumtimes its tough. yet again, my brilliance has always been overshadowed by my faults. i no longer receive the kind of support i used to receive from my frens.. once, ive been told that id be able to bang in goals anytime i want. now, its a matter of whether i play not. more competition for my position now. but be sure that i'll FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT .. !!  soon, i'll get that elusive goal.. now, its a matter of regaining that special spark in me to do wonders. help me guys. please. n coach, be patient. it'll come.

other than soccer.. hmmx, recently got to know my buddy finally made his move to date this gerl.. congratz leroy. haha. LE-TRISH or SHA-ROY? haha. hope they'll be happy together.. but roy, dun go forgetting ur classmates ya.. or frens for that matter.. dun be like some of my frens who forget when they finally get their gerl.

o ya, ive made a makeover of my room. im liking it! its more cosy to study in..or just chill. wanna come for a visit? just cal me. haha.. there's a mini-office too.. hehe..

hmmx, just waiting for time to pass by before i head down for training at 4pm. hope its going to be fun n innovative.. oops.does that sound right?