heyy.. for those of you who happen to pranceupon this blog in search of ady/adam ’s entries, he’s shifted his blog.. no longer using this one.

the new url : www.internalexile.wordpress.com

thanks again.

aahh.. nothing beats relaxing at home on a bright monday morning.. no school. cool~ it's the worker's day off actually. haha.. oh wells.. been lacking in updates recently.. quite  packed with stuffs to do man.. clean the house.. "photo-COPY" homeworks.. meet up with friends. training especially. haha.. cant wait to only have studies to do n awaiting the dreaded a-levels..

well oh well.. yeapz.. been chatting around lately..n i figured out sumting alarming.. hmmx.. its about kids n their mum.. there were a couple of times that i had to logout of msn coz i followed my mum out sumwer.. haha.. the reply i get.. "whoah.. mummy's boy eh?" … "u mean u stil go out with ur mum? so sweet.."   "its difficult to find people who still go out with their mum.. cool~"    …hmmx.. the irony of it all..  mostly gerls say it.. haha..  wad has happened to the era of kids gg out with their mummys?   i still go out grocery shopping n all.. haha.. even a trip to the market id go, if i had the time lah.. haha.. weird..

hmmmx.. been going out alot quite lately.. n yah.. ive been spending alot too!! damn.. the temptations are too too many many.. i bought a bag.. flip flops.. shoes.. slippers.. all in a space of 1 week? damn. im gg nuts.  i need cash. fast!  errghh..  its not like me. haha

 hmmx.. awaiting my elder bro's arrival.. he's coming for a visit with his family.. damn.. cant wait to play with ma two cute nieces!!  haha.. they do brighten up my day each time they come visit ya?  oh yah!! oh yah!! ive got super duper good news!! im gonna get another  niece/nephew!! haha.. i just got to know that my sis's 2months pregnant!! cool.. a mixed malay-eurasian baby.. how shall he/she look?? waitz*..  hmmx..back to the story.. n then, we shall go visiting my gramps.. haha. long time didnt see em. at nite..maebe do some last minute work..haha..

oh yah.. a number of my "bros" are going crazy over motorbikes!! haha.. each waning their license n of coz the bikes.. BK is gonna be filled with kawasaki KR riders!! haha.. should i get it as well? we'll see ya? but 1 thing i noe for sure is that i'll be getting my long-awaited car license!! n be cruising down the road with my GEN-2!! its fast n its furious.. cant wait!! haha.. my mum did mention sumting bout sponsoring my car license fees.. hehe.. hope so..

hmmx.oklah. guess this is enuff for an update.. cya ard!! do comment if free… haha. k, chiowz!

in the end. all was not what we wanted. JJ 0 – 1 VJ  . gutted we were. but vigilant n mighty are we. i was happy that not many of the boys crumbled to the ground thinking we've lost the challenge. they shall be respected for the character they showed in trying to overcome all odds.d efying the limit. im proud to be in this team JJ =)     NEXT UP..yjc. Shant overlook this game. we'll take it as it comes. I personally want to meet Vj AGAIN in the finals. we'll show them what spirit is.

apart from soccer.

hmmx. been affected by a number of things lately. i'll share some here. but there are just some things not for the public's eyes. be updating it in "private" category.

firstly. i just dont understand y there r people in this world who talk alot, but no actions. as in, they promise u this n that, but wen the time comes, they forgo that promise. damn. i seriously dont like it. please dun say things just to please my ears, but the moment i turn back, u forget it. arggh!

then. the phrase, "pot calling kettle black" is all too familiar to me already. there are bound to be people who tend to always want to correct you, yet, they themselves are doing a hell of wrong things. i just dont get it. cheh! wan to give me advice. work on yourself first lah!! a quote from Eric Cantona(a famous soccer player) :  RESPECT is given to whom gives.    Get it??  wake up your idea!

and then.. i hate pretenders. to the max. u tend to be "close" to me when u want/need sumting from me. once uve gotten it, im pushed aside only for you to return when u need other stuffs. get a life ah!  only when im happy that u be frens with me.. wen im down, u aint there. go..go ahead with ur so-called "one". i dont mind. like i saed. im just a stone that's easily thrown away/stepped on. Kacang lupekan kulit!! arrh. hu cares.  another quote, this time from Stalin. "Forgive your enemies. But NEVER forget their names."

last but CERTAINLY not least. i hate discrimination. i am fully aware of my disadvantages being short. im perfectly fine with people joking around about it. but, when im being serious, n u still want to joke, i hate it. alot. makes me think so lowly of u.there are limits guys. limits. get that into your thick skull. u joke 1 or 2 times about it, oklah. but if u continue to do it, please dont. im a guy who doesnt hold back.if i aint happy with u, i'll go right up to ur damn bloody face n tell u strt in it. lucky, so far im still doing my best to control.

klah. enuff about such pressing issues. dun like it at all!

DISCLAIMER:
guys. this entry might be harsh. some of u might think badly of me from now on. i hope u dont. but if u think you're apart of the problem, what can i say. i just cant take it anymore. arrh. chiow!!

    the bag looks SOMETHING like this btw.. =)

heyhey. just came back from a trip to JP with the crazy arghmad. haha. bought myself a new bag!! looks like a crumpler bag though. kk, let's all just see it when i where it yea? aniwae. its GREEN!! omg. sumhow, unknowingly, im starting to like green? shitt. haha. eh kuinoi!! greenish-fetish?? die. =)

school..

leroy wasnt in school again.. haha. as ash mentioned, we're missing one sex organ. the COCK! haha. when u put me him together.. all hell break loose? can? he's still sick. whoah. 7 days MC.. not bad..not bad.. but poor thing.. get well soon !!  hmmz.. civics period was in the hall just now. had a dialogue session with our VICE-PRINCIPAL. he was talking bout our preparations for a-levels. arrgh. not now. please.. haha.. basically, school was boring.. oh yah. the ruggers have started their a-div tournament. good luck dudes. naz was practically NOT concentrating in class. haha. i THINK they're playing their match against rjc at this very moment. hmmz.

speaking of a-division. my own tournament.. we just beaten SRJC 5-0. yewsong was brilliant. hat-trick. haha. n yah, overall, the team did great for MOST part of the game.. hmmx, this thursday.. match against VJC.. the real test? well. i see it as just another game.. we can beat them. we just have to believe n play our game. we have to show them what a-division is actually all about.. i hope we get what we want. u guys come support ya? be there. be loud. on a more serious note. i SERIOUSLY need to start performing. plaese. get back that spark. this is not helping. i'll show u people what i really can do. be a menace!

ok den. updates some other time.. hopefully by the time i blog again, it'll be on a happy note. =) help us.  for now, awaiting my sis's call to go change my hp. HOPEFULLY. been dragging it.

im sick n tired of hearing all these people talk about. – NSYNC

mann. ive been in some deep thought lately. i wonder how some things which shudnt be, actually happen. its like the thing is not in the right place. n it aches to see it that way. LIFE it seems.

3 matches have passed in the a-division tournament. i must say that jj is in a pretty good position to advance to the next round. we just have to maintain our focus n do what we do best. Play soccer. so far its been 3 matches down. 2 wins n 1 draw. wanted to win all actually but yeah, its ok. im proud of the team im in n the coaches i have. they're a good bunch of lads i tell ya. from the non-stop laughin sessions to the serious blastings we had. i for sure have gone thru that. even now. sigh. m i losing it? y cant i be the player i used to be? the one that can take on defenders anytime i want n do all sorts of stuffs to annoy them? i used to be called OWEN. i know y. but now, i think i cant even be called noh alam shah. im losing my touch. each time i get the ball, i lose my confidence cause i will have in my mind of what the coach wants me to do..n if i dun do it, i'll definitely get a shouting from him. sumtimes its tough. yet again, my brilliance has always been overshadowed by my faults. i no longer receive the kind of support i used to receive from my frens.. once, ive been told that id be able to bang in goals anytime i want. now, its a matter of whether i play not. more competition for my position now. but be sure that i'll FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT .. !!  soon, i'll get that elusive goal.. now, its a matter of regaining that special spark in me to do wonders. help me guys. please. n coach, be patient. it'll come.

other than soccer.. hmmx, recently got to know my buddy finally made his move to date this gerl.. congratz leroy. haha. LE-TRISH or SHA-ROY? haha. hope they'll be happy together.. but roy, dun go forgetting ur classmates ya.. or frens for that matter.. dun be like some of my frens who forget when they finally get their gerl.

o ya, ive made a makeover of my room. im liking it! its more cosy to study in..or just chill. wanna come for a visit? just cal me. haha.. there's a mini-office too.. hehe..

hmmx, just waiting for time to pass by before i head down for training at 4pm. hope its going to be fun n innovative.. oops.does that sound right?

heyy heyy. its now the second week of a-division tournament. so far, its ok lah. not great, but ok. we've played only 1 match so far, beating NJC 1-0. the other match was postponed due to lightning n all.. darn it. hmmx, im so shocked, but HAPPY that ive started in both games though. but somehow, my best is not out yet. maebe tmr i'll do the damage, CJC , ure mine.  oh yah, Coach Ng has made me practise sliding tackles during training. now, i have a beatiful big abrassion on my left thigh. invested on tights. oh yah, IVE GOT A PAIR of nike boots, worn by christ. ronaldo. haha. is good ya. very light. however, im starting to get worried on the pitch. i feel giddy at times. aching at 'that' part. hmmx. maebe its really time to go see doctor. awaiting the checkup on monday. please God, let me live my life happily.

aniwae..ive been going around telling peeps lame jokes, bout  pick-up lines. haha. as told by my fren to me.. haha…

1. Is you father a thief? i bet so, cos he stole the stars n placed it in ur eyes.   =)

2. Is your mum a baker? i bet she'll make a good one, coz u haf sucha nice buns!!  :p

3. My name is Adam. My frens call me ady. but YOU can specially call me tonite. (get it?) haha

4.  Uve got a plaster? i tripped when i fell for u.

5. are'nt u tired of running todae? cos uve been running past my mine so often.

hahahhaa!! there are more. oh yah, do be reminded that these are not meant to be said to ur partner..its some blonde jokes. haha. if u do, they'll smack ya i tell ya! ahahhaa.

*who do you play for?  JJ!!!

currently waiting for mum to prepare dinner. dunnoe wat to blog about. well. was into some deep thought just now. stoning actualli.

i wonder.. what would i be when im 30years old?  …

-by 30yrs old..
 i want to already be married. my wife's gonna be pregnant by then. or we might have kids already? haha. then. i want to be working as a lawyer in the juvenile court. hmm, at that time, i think im still a newbie. maybe earning only around $10-15k? hmmx. then, every morning before i leave for work, my wif would be waiting at the kitchen table, ready to serve me my coffee n bread, whilst i go give my babies a goodbye kiss. seeing them react as though they feel comfort will make my day. after my breakfast, i shall then wear my shoes n then, give a goodbye kiss to wife followed by a "salam". i'll then head to my tuscani car n blasts its stereo to the crappiness of the morning madness crew of 98.7FM.  haha. they sure knoe how to perk u up. n then, my normal work life. meet up with the clients. trying my utmost best to get them cleared, yet, making them a better person to be. haha. when i reach home, i would like to be greeted by the cries of my babies. cheered up by the smile on my wife's face. glad to be home. then, i'll go take a shower n then, take care of the babies while my wife go prepares dinner. haha. oh yah, did i mention that i'll be willing to haev my wife as a housewife, need not be working hard to earn income? haha. awwww.. i'll then place the kids in the play-pent while i have dinner with my wife. we'll talk bout my day at work.. our upcoming trips/holidays.. our parent's well-beings.. kids.. haha. awww, romantic. haha. then, we'll watch some tv till our kids go off to bed. n then, we'll have some "fun" before we ourselves go to bed. haha  [that idea makes me laugh]  n the following day be a new day…  =)

oh yah. at that age as well. id like to be living in a normal condo. preferably in between mine n my wife's parent's houses.. then, have a car, as mentioned, a tuscani. id like to be having 2 kids. bla3..

haha. enuff  bout that world of fantasy. shall concentrate of my life now. be contented with what i have. that is, if i live to see my life at 30. haha.

chiowz..